wat is fun and happy already = ='

am i thinking too much or wut? i forgot ady wat is d happy feeling. and wat is having fun. my life seems to get lamer and lamer day by day. it aint getting interesting. i dun have confidence in doing things. dun have close frens too in dis UMS. n i dunno how to find one. now i juz wanto go back to kl and hang out wif my homies. i dun care if dey take me as their homies or not = =' but i noe awe is ma homie. i wanto have fun and feel happy = =' my nafsu seems like dying ady. living a whole emoless and feelingless life is worst den death for me = =' hah shit. enuf bullshit.fck

new month. hijr month

hah.. here it goes.. fasting month again.. its not dat easeh for me.. haih = ='

i cant go to wushu class on sunday.. d class start at 8 a.m,d time dat i am still fresh n full wif energy.. i am noob enuf in martial arts especiall at d 'arts' part = =' my muvment oways are ugly n stiff :/ i need to train more. but fasting month come = =' wat to do. hafta bear wif it for 1 month. quite long. miss 4classes. shit. friday class i am usually sore n tired after d whole day outside = =' so i aint no doin ma best. shit.

i am a total noob = =' i want a talent dat i can work on it to be successful. i duwan to be successful but got others more successful den me in sumting. its so like fucked up. i want do sumting others havent done!!

enuf bullshit. my english is getting worst. people in ums all talk malay to me - -; no chance to improve my bad english. fcuk.

new shit

hurm. its been awhile since i updated dis place = =' i need new motivation to study >< i flunk for my mechanics mid term. study last minute. again. dis time not sleep too much. too little sleep = ='' haih.


and oso tx God got wushu class in dis UMS. if not i may die of boredom = =' d people there are quite nice. d lao shi all very pro. i can practice more of my extreme martial arts skills there XD even some are against d wushu principal = =' not some. all. hafta start all over again. but who cares XD i got 3 years in sabah. if i find sabah as a cool place,i might end up stayin here XD from wushu to 3 years in sabah. save me from crapness


i juz did d wushu performance btw. i aint no watak utama but still its a fun thing to do XD watak utama very stress! i manage to do it correctly even thou got lack of speed n xtra speed pula while doing d movement. but yet its cool XD i got new frens sum more n dats wat i want = =' d wushu people mostly are hyper XD dats wut i like


and oso, i think i got d weird feeling ady = =' i duwan dis kind of shit as it may ruin a frenship. n its totally uncool!! wahhhh T_T jia you to me XD


enuf bullshit. maybe next month upload some picture or some things i will cuz dis duckin broadband is very fast in early2 month. n slow like siput or constipation guy during d end of the month. till next time brothah sistah xoxo XD

foock shocks

i still got some shock in here = =' d chinese here especially guys are like..racist like shit. no offense but in matrix pahang i manage to find few gud frens which are chinese! in sabah,none! oni girls are less racist! wtf am i tawkin about man.. i bought a broadband. its nice. but iam pretty worry if i get too carried away wif it = =' i want do assignment oso cant! it should be can do assignment but it turnt out to be cant! after i got my broadband = =' it shud be easier for me to do assignment wif d existence of d internet = =' fcuk