wat is fun and happy already = ='

am i thinking too much or wut? i forgot ady wat is d happy feeling. and wat is having fun. my life seems to get lamer and lamer day by day. it aint getting interesting. i dun have confidence in doing things. dun have close frens too in dis UMS. n i dunno how to find one. now i juz wanto go back to kl and hang out wif my homies. i dun care if dey take me as their homies or not = =' but i noe awe is ma homie. i wanto have fun and feel happy = =' my nafsu seems like dying ady. living a whole emoless and feelingless life is worst den death for me = =' hah shit. enuf bullshit.fck